New Directions

Have you ever felt lost but still kept going in the same direction because you think it won't get you more lost if you have to turn around? Have you ever felt that bad things keep happening and when you look up to see the stars, you find your path is covered by trees that hide the light?

Honestly, I have too.

These past couple of months, I have been struggling with a lot of things. I'm a girl who knows where I want to go and I have a plan to get there. Turns out, my plan isn't always the best one. Thankfully my heart is my compass and even though these past couple of months have been full of stress and a desperate search for a way out of a horrible situation, when I followed the compass it led me to a clearing.

I was working for this company that I loved working for when I first started. The managment team was a team. Customers were happy and kept happy, no matter the cost. People started to leave and things started to change for the worse. Customers and employees were not treated with kindness and honestly, I was ashamed to say that I was a part of that team. I knew that what I was doing was right but it felt that I was the only one doing it. New faces came and went. It got better, then worse. I started searching for another job after I realized that the company did not care much about the employees, just about how to cut costs. They stopped caring about good customer service and being the bigger person.

I had been asking my family and friends to pray. I didn't tell them what to pray for because, quite frankly, I didn't know what to pray for either. I wanted a way out but I know that my plan is not always the best one. So, I waited, prayed and asked for others to pray with me. I had many interviews over the last few months. Two weeks ago, I had an interview with another company. I loved the feeling when I walked in. Even those who are not in management are part of the team. Everyone is striving to reach the same goal and I like that. I like working on a team who actually works as a team. I was given a second interview with the Director of the company. They asked some tough questions that made me question the plans I thought I had. Those questions I still need to answer. The director seemed to take a liking to me and said that I would be a perfect fit for the company. There is room to grow and be able to provide for my family.

I didn't hear anything for a while. Today, I receive a phone call from my new boss. She gave me great news and I start my new job, this week. She quoted my salary at a number I was not expecting but even if I start out as part time, I will be able to provide for my family. I know that God watches us and He knows what we need. Sometimes we just have to be patient and wait for His direction, not our own.

So, I think I am going to follow my career in this new direction.

Also, with crocheting, I might be taking that in a new direction as well. I am thinking of patterns to create. My own that will be published on Ravelry. I would love for my patterns to be in a magazine one day, but first thing is first: I need to write some patterns.  I am still working on my first graph-gahn pattern. There are so many ideas that I am getting or smaller projects. If only I could put the picture from my head to the yarn, that would be swell.

New directions are sometimes a bit nerve racking. I have a really good feeling about these. Of course, my thirst for adventure may never be quenched but, I do love adventure. I am so thankful to my husband who has put up with all of me. The stress, the long nights and my rants. He has gotten upset alongside me and for me. He is my rock and the reason I have smiled. I am going to take these next couple of days off and spend them with him. He doesn't believe me, but I could have never asked for a better gentleman to go on these life adventures with.

Remember, you are beautiful and well loved.

Also, happy first birthday to my cousin, Miles! I'm sorry we can't be there to help you celebrate.